With our upcoming move, I came to realize that I've been riding a roller coaster without any break since a couple of years. Although I began to move when I was little and very much familiar with the sudden change in my life, these past years have been unusual.
Starting from the birth of Louise March 2007 in Chicago: the adjustment from handling only one child to multitasking.
... *gasping* ...
A year later we had to cross the Atlantic ocean to move back to Europe: Germany. At the same time I began to write in the media and started the book: juggling between being a mom, wife, writer, and editor ... in a new country.
... *sweating, gasping*...
Summer 2009, the book was published and launched in Jakarta, Indonesia: the fruit of a hard work, a 6 week of fame and I was happy to see my parents and siblings.
...*jubilating*....
Shortly after our return to Munich, in the midst of me having (reverse) culture shock from all those hustle and bustle in Jakarta: "Honey, I got a better job offer in the southern hemisphere and we will move soon", announced husband.
....*suddenly out of breathe,* ......what????
...*thinking fast forward: Australia.... fantastic!*
....*disintegrating myself from Munich, the city I came to love, where we've been living for less than 2 years: P.A.I.N.F.U.L.* ....
C'est la vie. I enjoy every beat of my life and wouldn't trade it with anything else. Yet riding a roller coaster over and over again is overwhelming and I often find tears running down my cheeks from these mixtures of feeling.
Starting from the birth of Louise March 2007 in Chicago: the adjustment from handling only one child to multitasking.
... *gasping* ...
A year later we had to cross the Atlantic ocean to move back to Europe: Germany. At the same time I began to write in the media and started the book: juggling between being a mom, wife, writer, and editor ... in a new country.
... *sweating, gasping*...
Summer 2009, the book was published and launched in Jakarta, Indonesia: the fruit of a hard work, a 6 week of fame and I was happy to see my parents and siblings.
...*jubilating*....
Shortly after our return to Munich, in the midst of me having (reverse) culture shock from all those hustle and bustle in Jakarta: "Honey, I got a better job offer in the southern hemisphere and we will move soon", announced husband.
....*suddenly out of breathe,* ......what????
...*thinking fast forward: Australia.... fantastic!*
....*disintegrating myself from Munich, the city I came to love, where we've been living for less than 2 years: P.A.I.N.F.U.L.* ....
C'est la vie. I enjoy every beat of my life and wouldn't trade it with anything else. Yet riding a roller coaster over and over again is overwhelming and I often find tears running down my cheeks from these mixtures of feeling.

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anyway, good luck with everything, hopefully you and especially the children could adapt well to the new country
So which Australian city will you and your family reside in?
like your attitude. going up and down in a roller coaster is good to exercise your heart :p
I think it's a pity you leave Europe so soon. But I'm sure you will grasp the opportunity to teach your children to talk English with the proper Australian accent real soon.
(And maybe you will stay on the move and return one day to where you started from)
colson
And leaving a country we just learned to love, that's painful :(
Good luck on moving!
But at the same time...I've been back for a while in the country of my choice and upbringing a while now .. and I've gone through all kinds of stuff being back: reverse culture schock, boredom and stagnation. Depression and dissappointment. Now i'm finally sort of adjusted back to'home' as it were but home it is not. And part of me has still remained a wanderer, while still, at any prospect of change, leaping back scared and tired. With the words "not this again" going through my head. And yet the next moment it's all changed and I'm going
" Why did I just DO that?"
Sometimes I think that going through too many changes makes you incapable of having a healthy relationship with change later on.
I remember myself when life was simpler. I hated change but I also saw it as more of an adventure than I do now. When I didn't know what words like "beaurocracy" , 'homesickness''displacement' and yep, even 'culture clash' meant.
And yet reading this part of me still wishes I had this kind of life.
One thing i would say here though is : seriously, think of your kid.
Adults can cope with this sort of thing but... how is your child going to cope with all the mix of school and social systems,loss of familiar spaces, faces, languages, even ( for when you move abroad the new language you learn pushes out the old ones still) and more importantly, loss of security and break-down of friendship?
I think, no matter what it gave me, I will always resent - no- hate. My parents for having uprooted me aged 16 to Germany.
It's made me volatile, made it hard for me to build my life, settle down anywhere. It's meant an aful lot of pointless separation from places and people I've loved.
Sure, this kind of thing is a personal choice. If you choose it, that's fine. If your husband chooses it, that's fine.
But it was my step-father's fault that we didn't stay in England when
we could have. He too, wanted to chase his 'carreer'.
And then, three years ago he dumped us abroad, with no support.
Because he wanted to pursue a new career opportunity ( and even love)in China.
Now i know. It's only some male incapacity to secure family life that uproots that family life. No matter how adventurous the woman might be. We are homemakers. We weep each time we lose a home.
Men don't.
But we have to think of our children, their psychological well-being.
Because men will never take the time out of their lives to do so.
If I had a husband like yours, I'd tell him to go chasing exotic dreams with someone else. Not to stake other's lives on his adventures.
Sorry. Just my opinion.
But it sounds like it's about time your husband grew up a little but and realised, he's already got a job, he's got a family he manages to support, he's even got a nice country to live in. Everything else is just selfish greed.
However, I feel that the joy and pain of growing up abroad (following my father's tour of duty) have shaped me into a person I am now and I can only be thankful.
I never consider my husband as immature or greedy because so far his dreams are also mine.
As husband is also an adult TCK, we are raising our kids like our parents did to us, with some improvisations here and there.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts
I'm sorry if I sounded like I was mouthing off about you or your husband.
Tomorrow I'll probably back here going "ooh this all sounds so cool" anyway.
Just because it didn't work for me it doesn't mean it can't work for other people. Wish you all the best! Especially that you stay all together.. unlike my family did..